Preggo Life: Happy 12 weeks to me!
Note: This was written on February 20th but published on September 19th. A draft becomes a published article (yay!)
Slam and I at our doctor's appointment (NIPT test) on February 9th
Happy 12 weeks to me!
Apparently, reaching 12 weeks is a huge milestone.
It’s the time when you are almost done your first trimester (you officially finish once you hit Week 13!).
It’s around the time when everyone starts shouting to the world that there’s a human growing inside of them.
All of the major tests have been completed so the parents are now relieved and are confident that things will go well.
But that’s currently not the case for me.
I’m currently battling a virus and my body is shutting down.
This weekend, I was the most stressed out I’ve ever been and I hate myself for getting to this point.
I’m in pain and I don’t want to face the world.
On Friday, I caught a bug.
Slam was sick a few days before - he was sneezing and had a stuffy nose and I was perfectly fine. But of course, my preggo body decided to snatch up whatever he was having soon after and poof, it got what it wanted.
Straight away when I woke up on Friday, I felt my head throbbing and my nose and sinuses were already acting up.
I knew for a fact I would not be able to do any work that day so I quickly messaged my team telling them I was planning to take the day off due to my sickness.
Here’s the Teams message I sent at 8:30am that morning (before telling my team I was preggo!). I’ve removed the avatars and names to keep my team members anonymous.
You see… I’m a young 30-something year old.
I should look and act healthy, but no siree bob!
Getting preggo weakens your immune system and weakens your entire body.
Your body is protecting the little bub and growing a human inside of you and it could not care less about protecting you as a mama.
I felt helpless not being able to heal myself.
I ended up going to the doctor and bought $80 worth of pharmaceuticals that they had prescribed me (oof). I even accidentally got a prescription of some nausea tablets that I had ALREADY purchased earlier. I went to a different doctor so they prescribed the same thing and I was already dazed and out of it that it didn’t click to me that it was the same thing.
So yeah, sucks but I wasted about $10 purchasing that duplicate prescription (boo!).
Anyway, I just wanted to document this.
This feeling of “ughhhhhhhh… I really, really wish I was healthy again.”
I don’t know how expecting mamas do it.
So many people talk about how easy their pregnancy is or just don’t share the details and now I’m finding it all out myself through first-hand experience… and let me tell you, it’s not fun at all.
Slam keeps joking around that we will probably only have one kid and honestly, this pregnancy journey is making me consider that. Lol.
But you can’t really pick and choose how many children you plan to have.
So I’ll take the blessing for now and then figure out what I want to do in the future.
But for now, I’m taking it day by day and hoping that life gets better from here.
I’m so freaking stressed and I don’t know how to fix it.
A break? A vacation? Telling the world that there’s a lime-sized billiard ball growing inside of me?
What will make me happy?
I just can’t wait to go to Canada.
To be surrounded by my family and friends and share the good news with them!
I need support and their love in my life and although I have told a few folks here, it’s still been difficult.
When I’m in the most pain, I just imagine I’m a little girl again needing her parents to take care of her.
It’s tough living abroad. But it was my decision so I really can’t complain.
Something interesting too is the things I crave the most are all of my childhood favourite Vietnamese dishes that my mom has made growing up:
Thit Kho (Vietnamese Braised Pork with Eggs)
Canh Chua (Vietnamese Sweet & Sour Soup)
Pho (Vietnamese Noodle Soup)
Banh Cuon (Vietnamese Rice Rolls)
It’s very weird but I feel somewhat connected to my mama after experiencing pregnancy.
I cannot imagine what she was going through having to experience 4 pregnancies (one being pregnant with twins!).
So I can’t wait to ask her for all of her stories and see what she says.
About 3 more weeks and I get to share the exciting news.
Wish me good luck! <3
xoxo, knd.